The old and the new. 2012, BRING IT- I think.

I needed to jot down a few thoughts here:

• clothing ban (jan-...) we'll see how long I could do this for, this doesn't include purchasing "necessities," i.e. sheets, towels, curtains, etc.
• Using up all the items I have in my cabinet, face creams and all the makeup that's been collecting dust.
  
• SAVE more, yes- even more than I am right now. I need to prioritize, I'm in the latter part of my 20s and do I really need to go out every weekend? Hm.
• SAVE for travel, ahem* the trip in July will need a lot of reinforcement especially since B doesn't have any income. I don't mind forking out for the trip, I just want to be prepared. We're both willing/prefer traveling on a shoestring.
• be more ASSERTIVE at work. sometimes I feel like a pushover and can't help but think perhaps we feed into these gender stereotypes.
• I'm excited for 2012 but more than anything else, I'm nervous. I'm not sure what to expect. Last year, all I wanted was a job and I got more than what I asked for; I landed a part time weekend job and then got lucky enough to stumble upon a temp agency which placed me faster than I thought. So, for 6 months I was working 7 days a week, yup- you read that correctly. 7 days. about 6months before I finally mustered the strength to quit my weekend job. All this time I was afraid to say yes to a perm weekday gig and missed out on some loot.
• I'm not sure what I want to accomplish this year and it scares me. I don't want to be without any goals but I guess I have enough on my plate for now.
• B & I are doing well, he's going through some sort of metamorphosis and I have to remind myself to be more supportive, patient and understanding. I really wish to be that person for him and I hope I could pull through.
  

I'm sure I have a lot more things to lay out. Right now, I can't help but daydream about sunshine. It's frigid cold and I feel weak, this must be a sign to drink my liquids and get my 8hrs.

Just breathe.

I don't know why I started a blog 'cause clearly I don't write in it. Trust me, there are a million thoughts racing through my mind everyday as I ride the subway from one borough to the other but every time I sit in front of the laptop, my drive disappears. drive. funny how I use that word because as the older I get, the more I realize how rare that trait really is- or perhaps I just haven't met them yet. It feels so weird to read my thoughts sometimes... to put it on paper is to give it life, right? so then, what does it mean? what does it say about me? i remember there was a time in college when i had a friend read my essay, and she said you use "however" and "but" a lot, it's telling me that you're indecisive. you can't make up your mind. ::lightbulb:: DING! honestly, sometimes i don't know where my brain is, how i really feel and whether or not it even matters. it starts out confusing, then frustrating and at last, apathetic. apathetic. now that's a word i really hate. at least i don't feel apathetic 'bout apathetic.

Hello 2011

I just realize I haven't updated this blog in ages. I've got a couple of resolutions for the new year and hope that I could stick with all of them but that's just wishful thinking.

- Shopping ban for clothes. (I really don't need anything new, the last thing I bought was a black one shoulder dress for a NYE party. There are still some items in my closet with tags on them. I realize I shop when I'm bored, when I'm moody, etc. so I will hope to channel that energy elsewhere, i.e. cleaning)

- Go to the gym 2x a week, at least! What's the point of having a membership if I'm not even going? Silly.

- Try not to use anymore plastic bags.

- Drink more water.

- Take fish oil supplements.

- Eat less meat.

- Clean my room at least once a week.

- Stay organized.

- Don't buy things just 'cause it's on sale.

- and last but definitely not least, GET A JOB.